Day Seventeen: Ughhhh.

I swear I've been blogging every day. I just haven't been posting. But today that changes. I'll post everything I've written at some point. Later.

I woke up this morning, exactly ten minutes before my alarm, with cramps. Lovely, right? I thought so.

So I got up, went to the bathroom, took care of what needed to be done to make sure I didn't bleed out all over the place (which is really disgusting and hard to clean, by the way), and went out to the kitchen to take a handful of Midol 'cause I knew the cramps were only going to get worse. They always do. I then went back to bed, turned off my alarm, curled up into the fetal position as God's curse to women made itself known by way of intense uterine cramping, and picked up a book to read to distract myself until the Midol took effect.

I've heard women crave chocolate because it has caffeine and caffeine makes everything better. Therefore, I had a cup of coffee AND chocolate this morning. And now I'm chugging water because dehydration makes it worse. Which means bathroom trips every 45-60 minutes. And increased metabolism. So I'm hungry, thirsty, peeing, and in a constant state of, what I like to call, 'ugh.' Because the worst part of this first day is the feeling that your insides are turning to mush.

It's hard to explain how this feels.

It's not painful, not after the Midol or Advil kicks in. But there's this distinct feeling of grossness in the lower abdominal region. You know it SHOULD be hurting, but instead all there is is this discomfort that kinda makes you squirm because it's in between annoying and uncomfortable. But it doesn't hurt and it's not at the forefront of your mind. It's just there. You know it's there, but you can ignore it if you concentrate on something else. But the second you're done, it's there again. Like a tiny fly buzzing around in your brain.

For some reason, after all this happens, I start feeling like everything in my lower abdomen is one big, mushy pile of grossness. That hasn't hit me yet today, but I know it will. Especially if I'm standing or walking around. Sitting down, everything is okay. But, as I mentioned before, I have to pee a lot. So I'm getting up and walking and feeling like mush.

Ugh.