You Know What's Coming

I keep blogging about Alex, and I'm sorry, but he's sort of become a constant in my life now. Him and Jenelle are pretty much the people I see the most on a regular basis. Now that Coco's back in town, though, I'll be seeing her a lot more often, too. :D

If you follow my twitter, you know the basics of what went on last night. It was probably the funniest/scariest conversation of my life. I realize some girls get away with it all the time and no one thinks twice about it, but I'm not one of those girls. I'm not the type to say, "Hey, let's run away together and get married and have fifty kids." But, my goodness, last night was incredible. I don't even remember how Jenelle and I got on the topic, but somehow we figured that if one of us had a kid, we could live together in a studio apartment (aptly named the Emerald City because everything we own will be green) on welfare, raising a baby as unlesbian lesbian mothers of an eyeless child (don't ask). This somehow turned into me sending Alex a text saying, "Okay Alex, it's time for us to make a child. Don't worry, Nelle and I will raise it on our own. We just want to raise a kid on welfare in the Emerald City."

Now, if you follow me on twitter, needless to say, Alex was all for this plan (which was surprising, 'cause if I was a dude and got that text, I'd be like, "Uh...see ya!"). I was definitely blushing a LOT whenever I got his responses to my ridiculous texts. But anyway, at the end of it, we decided we need to practice making a child before we actually make one because I have to be twenty before I get pregnant (gotta beat teen pregnancy, you know).

In short, Alex confirmed for me, in a roundabout way, that he wants to do me.

Which is awesome and all, but I doubt it's gonna happen any time soon because I'm still a firm believer in love before sex. So if he happens to fall desperately in love with me before January 30th, he's out of luck. :P

Also, and this is the most important thing, I want to be his girlfriend before anything like child-making happens. Well, being married before making a child would be preferable. But I want to be his girlfriend if he, um, wants to 'practice,' as he put it.

I'm not making myself sound very pure right now.

My intentions are good, I promise. I've got standards. I've got class, even. If he wants to do anything more than kiss me in the rain, he's gotta commit.

There we go. That's what I've been trying to say this entire time.

And I kinda sorta told him that. I told him he at least had to buy me dinner before we get around to baby making. And by that I meant, "You have to date me and be my boyfriend and fall in love with me first." :)

Anyway, Jenelle and Alex and I went midnight bowling after this fantastic conversation. Alex beat us the first game, and then I stepped it up and kicked them both to the curb in the second game. Alex said he was thirsty, so, inevitably, we ended up at Denny's at two in the morning eating seasoned fries. And apparently whenever I wasn't paying attention or in the bathroom, Jenelle and Alex were having interesting conversations about my butt. Jenelle filled me in on this afterward, of course. I was slightly disturbed. But that's okay. :P

Nelle and I had an impromptu sleepover last night, too. I immediately injured my lower back as soon as we got home from Denny's and she gave me a two hour massage. It was WONDERFUL. And we talked about everything. No shame, no embarrassment. Everything was out there. I've never been able to do that with a best friend before. Maybe it's just something about Jenelle that makes me open up more than I normally would. :)