My New Reputation

I'm not a morning person. Never have been, never will be. My friends and family back home know not to talk to me when I first wake up because, hello, I don't like waking up. Even if it's four in the afternoon. The point is, people usually don't talk to me when I first wake up because I have no control over how grumpy I am.

My roommate figured it out pretty quickly. If we happened to wake up at the same time, she knew I wasn't in a good mood, and she knew I was still half asleep after first waking up. I said and did some bitchy things. BECAUSE I HAD NO CONTROL OVER IT. I was still partially asleep, for crying out loud.

At first when she mentioned that I was a bitch when I first woke up, I agreed. I wasn't always mean, though. But when someone woke me up roughly or without caution, I tended to be meaner than usual. She was right about calling me out on it. No big deal. But then she kept on saying things, and more people joined in, even though they'd never actually seen me be mean. These people mean the world to me. They're my family when I'm over here. And they just jumped onto the bandwagon.

Nick thought I was asleep yesterday when he said I was like Medusa when I first woke up. If I looked at someone, they turned to stone. He joked that he wanted to wait in the room one day, and then run out screaming when I woke up.

I've always known Nick's an asshole, and I probably would have thought it was funny if he hadn't said it while he thought I was asleep. If he'd said it to my face, it might not have hurt as much as it did.

Last night, I started book four in a new series that Nick, Stepf, and I are reading. I started reading around 3:30 AM (everyone was up late because of the Relay for Life) and I didn't stop until about 6:30 because the book had me so wrapped up. I fell asleep around 7 and slept until 2:30 this afternoon. I woke up because Nick had come into the room to talk to Elisabeth.

All I did was turn over, smile, and wave at him. Nothing mean. Nothing bad.

He fake screamed and ran out of the room while Elisabeth laughed.

And I turned back over and cried for the better part of half an hour.

Emotional Turmoil

I'm so...confused.

It's clearly not cheating if I go on a date with another guy. We were never officially together.

So why does it feel like something to be ashamed about?

Ugh.

So...I know no one reads this...I might as well be canon.

I love Matt. Like, true, bonafied love. It's been this way since I was fifteen. That's almost a whole three years.
This summer, we were kind of a faux couple. We went on dates and we kissed and everything. I'm never so comfortable with guys as I am with Matt.
We agreed when we finally admitted that we liked each other that none of the couple-y stuff between us would last long distance. It just wasn't realistic and we knew that. He also knew that college life would be crazy and that he couldn't tie me down. I wouldn't have minded. I feel tied down anyways.

It's just so weird! I try to look at guys as potential date material, and all I get from myself is, "He's nice to look at, but definitely not date worthy."
And all the other guys are brothers to me. There's no way I could look at them any differently. It's totally platonic.

And then I met Derek. I was chilling with Lauren Fairweather and he stopped by to ask her something about Vocalign (the co-ed a capella group on campus). When he mentioned he was arranging an a capella version of 'Don't Stop Believin',' I freaked out and told him it was my favorite song and that I really wanted to try out for Vocalign. We started talking music (making fun of Melica, fangirling (kind of) Phalanx, and sharing community chorus woes) and found out that we had a lot in common. By the time I got back to my dorm, he had friend requested me on facebook.

From there, we talked over facebook, in choir, and when he would stop by my dorm.

Today was one of those 'stop by my dorm' days. Elisabeth is gone at some kind of band competition (what a dork, I know) with the guy who likes her (if they make out in my car, I'm going to castrate them both). So, Derek stopped by to show me a medley he's arranging for Vocalign, and to tell me that auditions are in two weeks. We ended up talking for about half an hour about Harry Potter, music, and facebook/youtube creeping. Then, on his way out, he turned and asked what my schedule was like for this week. I asked him why and he said he was wondering if I'd like to go to dinner with him.

When those words left his mouth, my stomach dropped. I'm pretty sure most of the blood in my face drained, too.

It's not like I wasn't expecting it. That's not it at all. Derek's nice, musically-inclined, and not bad looking. And he's a little obvious. But that's beside the point.

I knew he was going to ask me out eventually.

But it still came as a shock to me.

I said yes.

And here's my dilemma: How do I go on a date with a guy I kind of know when I know my heart's back in California with Matt?

I subconsciously went on boy hiatus when I moved. I didn't mean to. Matt told me not to. He told me to live my life.
I'm just so freakin' in love with him that I can't stop myself!

I feel like I've said this before.

Have I said this before?

God.

Random...?

I REALLY screwed up my pattern, haha. :P

So...what's been going on since September? I'll fill you in in sentence fragments that won't make sense to anyone but those directly involved:

1. Person Profile = meeting Derek = shoo-in for Vocalign next semester!
2. COMING OUT WEEK! :D
3. "She licks me at night."
4. Extreme creepin' = "Come clooooser!"
5. Dressing like dorks two days in a row.
6. Homecoming.
7. Tripping up risers (they'll murder me eventually).
8. SMeyer bashing with Lauren
9. The Virgin Mary Had a Baby Boy --> OH YEAH.
10. Cosmo..."Kool-Aid Man? Really?"
11. Rock Band amazingness.
12. "You're an asshole."
13. "I don't think it's common practice to cut off little boys' balls anymore."
14. "I lost my ID card in Leffler..." "No, we don't have it." - ONE HOUR LATER. - "Oh, by the way, we have your ID card."
15. Roommate lovin'. :)

Yeah, basically, it's been pretty crazy. Today was the first day I didn't take/need a nap. It was awesome. It was also probably because I actually went to bed before the sunrise. :P

Post questions in the comments and I MIGHT elaborate on all this.

<3 Awkward Sister #5

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I messed up my pattern. Damn it.

Oh well.

Quick update (even though you probably know most of this from the vlogs):
1. Nerf Gun wars
2. Team-making = not me!
3. Piano = slow suicide
4. Random hour-long conversations with Lauren at dinner
5. Planning to see John and Hank Green at a Nerdfighter convention
6. Wizard rock!
7. Awesome roommate
8. Awesome roommate acquiring notsome boyfriend. :(
9. Sheetz runs at 4 AM
10. Gossip Girl parties every Monday
11. Watching Princess Bride (right now)
12. Making fun of DeWitt(less) after (and sometimes during) choir
13. Being part of Hot and Dreamy Horny Dinosaurs
14. Having awesome friends like Jackie, Sam, Joe, and Elisabeth. My framily. :)

I had this randomly awesome conversation with Lauren today at dinner. We sat in the caf for, like, an hour...not eating. She's gonna take me to a wrock concert sometime this semester. And we're going to the Yule Ball at Nina's college. And the Twilight premier/wrock concert in Jersey (hopefully with Teresa, if we can sleep on the floor of the hotel room Lauren and Nina are getting).

Also, about 45 minutes ago, my mom bought me a phone off ebay...so, hopefully, that'll come soon and I'll be able to tell what time it is again. Haha.

I don't have much more to say right now. I'm supposed to be reading "The Trouble with Africa," so...yeah.

Good night!

<3 Karaline, Awkward Sister # 5

PS: Skype me! fatty.slytherin

Day Two: EPIC FINISH

Well, okay, it's not really finished. Day two is, but we still have the rest of the week to go.

It's hard to walk right now. And stand up. And go up and down stairs (damn it, why am I am on the second floor?!). You should see me trying to crawl into my bed. Hahahaha. It's raised to about my waist and I have to swing one leg over and pull the rest of me up using the opposite side of the mattress. It's pretty epic.

Day three tomorrow! 6:30 AM practice, breakfast at 8 AM, cleaning my crap off Elisabeth's bed before she has to move in 8:30-10:30 AM, lunch at 11:30 AM, 12:30 PM practice, check-in and registration for honors students at 3:15-4:30 PM, dinner at 5:30 PM, 6:30 PM practice.

Yikes. I still have to go to the grocery store and get my ID validated. :P Yay volleyball!

At least I'll have time to recover (kind of) on Thursday. All the honors freshmen are gone all day for HOOT. Don't ask me what it stands for. But there's a ropes course involved and I'm STOKED. Jesus Camp got me all addicted to adrenaline rushes and stuff. Haha. I'm like movie!Edward now. :D

That's about it. Just wanted to give you west coast people an update. ;D

If you want more information on how I am, go watch my vlog!

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=h4e7UhG8WEo

<3 Karaline

And the winner is...Stephenie Meyer!

Soooo much to talk about!!!

But first...

SPOILER WARNING!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!





So, a few of my Breaking Dawn predictions came true, but I was still completely surprised by a LOT of things. Like, you know, Edward actually producing sperm. I'm still trying to figure that one out. I'm thinking it has to do with sperm not actually being a bodily fluid. I'll have to find out from Stephenie, of course, because it really confused me when Bella got preggers.

But anyways, I LOVED the beginning! Edward and Bella's wedding was amazing--until Jacob showed up, of course--and even Rosalie was helping Bella get ready. It was very well done. Like, there was detail, but not too much because, from Bella's point of view, all the emotions were creating a haze around her.

Now, the honeymoon....It's hard to describe how I feel about it. I'm still confused, of course. But more than that, I'm a little pissed. There was not ONE detail. It was always, "And pulled us gently into deeper water..." and shit like that.

We know they had sex, Stephenie, now channel Nora Roberts and GIVE IT SOME DETAIL.

Ahem. So, yeah, some of my favorite quotes came from the times right after they had sex. Like the, "I bit a pillow. Or two." I laughed hysterically at that one. It's so not Edward. And my other favorite was when they were commenting on her shredded lingerie. XD It was great.

And then came the random pregnancy. WTF. I thought Bella was going to die, and then Edward would die, and then Jacob would find out and try to kill the Cullens and start a huge war over it. It freaked me out. But when Jacob decided to become the Alpha, I knew the prospect of a werewolf vs. vampire war was out. Damn it.

Jacob's point of view was...interesting. I really enjoyed his way of thinking compared to Bella's. Jacob's so sarcastic and filled with blond jokes. It was funny when he wasn't stressing over the 'monster' destroying Bella.

I actually read through all that again last night and I didn't know how I'd missed the obvious. He called Bella a drug and that it was more like he was addicted to the center of her. And when Renesmee was born, he had that feeling like he had to leave the room because the pull to be with her had shifted. I SHOULD have caught that. Then maybe the end of Jacob's POV wouldn't have surprised and disgusted me so much. I mean, now I can't make fun of Quil. His soul mate might be only two years old, but at least she's fully human. God, Jacob, couldn't you have imprinted on the girl in the park at least?

Oh well. The Aston Martin was in the book, so I can't really complain about Jacob's choice of soul mate.

So, I kinda ruined the end of book 2 for myself. Jacob thought Bella was dead, but I'd already looked ahead and seen that book 3 was from Bella's point of view. So I knew she lived.

Damn me and my curiosity.

But book 3 was probably one of the best. Bella finally became a vampire! And Emmett's sex jokes were possibly the funniest thing I've ever read. Oh, Emmett. You gotta love that kid.
And Jasper! Holy crap! When Charlie was coming to visit and Bella and Jasper kept going back and forth, I just started cracking up!

'We'd have all night...
"Bella."
"Sorry Jasper."'

Omg. Perfect.

None of the other Twilight books made me cry. Well, okay, I might have cried a little when Edward left in New Moon. But that was more pity for myself than for Bella. But in Breaking Dawn, I really cried. Only once. It was during the scene in the clearing with the Volturi. Everyone was saying goodbye.
It hit kinda close to home. In exactly one week, I'll have to do the same thing. Say goodbye to everyone I know and love on the west coast. In the book, it was a permanent goodbye, I know, but it still impacted me. Seriously. I was sobbing. It started right when she told Renesmee she loved her and explained to Jacob what they had to do if a fight broke out. It just seemed so real to me--that feeling of never seeing someone you love ever again. And I could imagine it from Bella's point of view, too. She was giving up her child. 'More than my own life.'

So sad.

But at least it had a happy ending. I mean, really. Only the best books end with implied sex. Note the word 'IMPLIED.' >:|

I believe my exact words, when she glossed over the sex every time, were, "Fuckin' Stephenie fuckin' Meyer! Fuckin' fuck fuck!"

Ask Reesa. I said it every time. That's how she knew Edward and Bella were going to get it on again. Because I would have a hissy fit every time. :P

We didn't even get detail on how Edward looked naked. Jeez! All we got was that he was gorgeous naked! And that he's a horny bastard! Gahhhhhhhhhhh!!!




I'm done now. I guess I'll have to total my score...see what I was right or wrong about when I was making predictions. =/ It's so sad that it's over...but I still have many things to figure out, I guess. That'll take some time.

<3 Karaline

Blog Post 3: Breaking Dawn Predictions

I know Lucy won't understand this, but this is mainly for me so I can get all my thoughts out.

Breaking Dawn Predictions:

#1:
After the wedding, Edward and Bella get it on. Meyer won't put in much detail because then the book would be shelved as an adult romance novel instead of a young adult romance novel. Which sucks because I want detail of just how stunningly sexy Edward is naked.

#2:
While Edward and Bella are on their honeymoon, the rest of the Cullens move away from Forks so they don't break the treaty.

#3:
Edward bites Bella before Jacob can stop it from happening. [Insert epic battle between Edward and Jacob] Bella stops them before they kill each other and Jacob runs away again because Bella's a bloodsucker. While running, he imprints on someone.

#4:
Once a vampire, Bella struggles to remain herself instead of a blood-sucking fiend. Edward helps her.

#5:
Enter the Volturi. [Insert general epic-ness that answers the question of why the Volturi's skin is so papery]

#6:
The entire book will be epic and will end happily forever after with Edward and Bella, and Jacob and some other girl. :D

I'm hoping the werewolves and vampires go at it at some point. Edward breaks the treaty, but if the Cullens move away...plus, Seth is friends with Edward and Jacob's in love with Bella...so...I dunno. Something will happen. An impasse. Hopefully.

That's all for today! I'll wait until August 4th to say if my predictions come true. :)

<3 Karaline

PS - I'm done for this month! *wipes sweat off brow*