Worry, worry, worry

That's right, I'm worried. About what, you ask? Friends. Life. The future.

Jenelle's been depressed, but she won't say anything about it. Reesa and I have come up with some highly plausible reasons for it, but Nelle won't ever bring it up.
Lucy's been...Lucy. Heart broken Lucy. She puts a smile on for the day, but I can just feel it when something's wrong. Something's definitely wrong.
Thomas doesn't have a date to prom anymore, so Nelle wants to ask him to go with her as just friends. Coco wants to go to prom in Angela's group, but she can't unless she has a senior as her date, so she wants to go with Nick. Nelle's in love with Nick, but Nick is enamored with Joy, and Joy doesn't like Nick or her current boyfriend, Nathan. Oh, and Reesa wants Coco to go in our group to prom.

High school love is just so freaking confusing sometimes. And, like, it's not real. All those stories about marrying a high school sweetheart are, like, one in a million. Seriously, the average person only maintains a good relationship with two high school friends after graduation. I'll probably have two or three: Reesa, Lucy, and Nelle. My east coast buddies. :)

So, back to Nelle.
She's gorgeous and talented and funny and amazing. She thinks she's ugly because she's overweight. And she's humble when it comes to her amazingness. But it's not like she's disgustingly obese. She knows how to pull it off! And personally, Nelle wouldn't be Nelle without her...voluptuousness. She's Jenelle and she can work the weight.
So, anyways, since she believes she's ugly, she also believes she'll never get the guy (read: Nick). And then there's her mom who is so overprotective that Nelle's not even allowed to apply to college. They're moving to North Carolina and Nelle has to go to a JC there. Um...what the hell? Matt was fine at State and I'm pretty sure her two older sisters were fine at 4-year universities, too. Why does Nelle get left out? Sure, her grades aren't the best, but State would probably take her anyways. It's State.
The other reason she's depressed: Canada. Our choir is going to Canada for 5 days. Nelle's mom is, as I said, overprotective and won't let her leave the country. Which means Nelle's stuck learning all these songs that she doesn't even get to perform. And she's always left out of the Canada excitement and discussions because she's not going. I really wish she was. I love Nelle and I need her singing beside me. When she's not, I don't feel as confident or as awesome. :(

Now, onto prom. I have a date. I promised my date I would go with him about a year ago. My date is not my boyfriend. At one point, I wished he was my boyfriend. I don't anymore. When I explained this to my boyfriend, he got...I dunno...quiet. I told him nothing would happen and that I'm totally not into this other guy. He's like my brother now and there's just no way...
I felt so bad. His only response was, "It's nothing to do with you, but I've been in a situation where 'nothing was going to happen' and the next thing I knew, my girlfriend left me for this other guy."
Here's the dilemma. I have to go with Matt. I've been planning on going with him for ages. But somehow I've got to ensure that Trent's okay with that. He has to know that he can trust me. I mean, Matt's already cleared this whole prom thing with his girlfriend and she's totally fine with it. She's really awesome, by the way. :)

So, yeah. Prom. Ugh. Like, I'm excited, but at the same time, I really don't want to be there when the drama explodes. I've had enough drama to last me a life time already.

There's probably more I have to say, but since I started writing this yesterday and my internet's about to crash, I figure I should end it here.

Musically yours,
Kat